Well, I've just completed my art exam so that's one thing out the way. One more exam to go and i'm finished for good!

I've finally finished school as well!! Yay! No more going back to that place that I hate so much And college in september!

Now all i need is a job. Harder than it sounds believe me i've been trying. Oh well.

I'm generally just working out what to do as time goes by at the moment. Seems no point in doing anything else really. I've speant far too much of my life stressing.

As for the friend thing, well i think i'm just not going to get too close. Seems safer that way. I have some really great friends now, you guys included, ones that are really there for me and I don't want to get back into a stressful friendship again.

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As an extra i'd like to say thank you to you guys for being there when i really needed help

especially

Ok i've decided that i'm going to do my history exam and then that's it. I'm leaving and i'm guessing that it's for the best.

I just got a phone call from an old friend. We havn't really been close since i went through a rough patch and i sorta had an emosional shut down. I went through a pretty rough time and i'm still getting over it.

I sort of fell out my old crowd of friends, I just couldn't be around them any more. I didn't want to go out and get drunk and act like a 3 year old all the time. Not just didn't want to but couldn't. I told them that i was going through a rough time and they didn't listen or try to help. And to top it off i got a text on new years saying that i was a bitch and to let my boyfriend out of his cage. I'm guessing it was form that group of people.
I don't control my boyfriend or put him in a cage. i'm not like that. So it was a really big blow.

And now i've spoken to her and it feels like old times sorta. But now i'm stuck. Should i give the friendship another chance? I really don't know. I'm not sure if i should trust her.

Well I thought i'd better update since it's been a while.

Nothing much has been going on here really. doing some deviations, getting ready for my art exam.

Hope I do ok in it.

I've just realised that I have an exam soon too. Great... NOT. I wish i'd been kicked off the course like my friends. It would be so much easier.. It's not like any universities except that course anyway. Besides, i'm going to college next year. I just don't know what to do anymore...

I hate goin to my lessons and the only reaso i'm doing these exams is because i'm being pressured into doing so. I don' need them i don't want to do them. I hate this..

I know that my birthday isn't until august but i have to start deciding what I want to do now or else no one will come because they're all usualy on holiday.

So my question is.. Does anyone have any ideas for what I could do for my birthday? It'll be my 17th and i'd like to do something different. It doesn't have to be mature lol just fun.

Preferably something that would last a whole day.

x shaiya out x

I'm in! Yay! I'm not sure what exactly to say hehe yay me!